Conversations with Jesus - Request for guidance

My blessed LORD and Divine Father
My guide when I sent my prayers heaven wards to thine presence
Thank you Father, Brother, Mother and Ancient Master

# Heart opening
# Depression
# Universe/insignificant trot
# Relationship - Parents
# Future/Quarterlife crisis
# Honesty

Appa.. I fear and worry about my future. Life partner (if any)
Am trying to find my identity in this large world where I feel unguided. Can you step into my life powerfully and let your presence known tangibly, visibly(inner senses)?

Creative expression
My heart longs to create drama, write scripts for a movie, connect with noble people of the society, make big money, help millions, travel worldwide, visit sacred places, experience the boundaries of higher states of consciousness. Can you please guide me in the process of this ups and downs? I feel stuck and life externally doesnt seem to improve. I somehow manage with the help of my Soul Angel Sudarshanji's help. But how long Father? Isn't it your duty to help me out? How long Father? Is life meant to be dry and insecure? Or is there a better option that I can choose...

Let me know Divine Jesus.. May I sing songs, melt in devotion, feel tremendous gratitude...
Thank you Father for listening to my prayers.

How do I talk? What do you really like? I feel like a person who always demands things from you. Is there a better way to commune with you. Teach me to take my relationship with YOU deeper and deeper. To have a conversation with you every moment of my life.

Teach me to Discover your PRESENCE within me. Teach me to CONNECT with your holy presence at all times.

Genghis Khan movie, Margaret Feinberg book, Wine, Women and Discovering God

Jamukha [Brother - Genghis Khan]
All Mongols fear the Thunder
but not you -- ?

Genghis Khan
I had no place to hide from the Thunder
so I wasn't afraid anymore


My sweet Divine Mother
As I take baby steps to grow into adulthood,
I invoke thine sweet glance and merciful grace on my being
May it flood like the Ganges that gush forth from thy Husband Shiva's head
May it fill my being with light and guide me, protect me, instruct me in your natural laws

Many a men were confused in their vanity of disconnection from initimately knowing you
Lead me kindly mother into the Heavenly Kingdom

Help me to discover YOU in everything, everywhere
Teach me inner strength, courage, bravery
Be my wisdom in all matters spiritual and material
Teach me to love everyone unconditionally
And radiate stillness from the core of my heart now and forever more in all my embodiments
My sacred and humble pronams to thine holy presence Mother

May I be awed, inspired, overjoyed and melt in thine sacred divine presence all my life
In all my forms, In all Lokas and In all vehicles in which I AM embodied.

Aum Namashivay!

Notes from Varadeeksha mala sadhana and Amma Bhagavan's blessings/messages

--> #Sakthi sthal
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Three processes need to be done for Samskara Shuddhi
Raksha for divine protection

--> #Zoomin pics ordering - Hanumanji, Saraswati Maa, Amma Bhagavan :) My parents coming to Nemam/Sakthi Sthal.

--> Books to buy

Many Lives Many Masters - Sudarshanji asked to buy
Codependent no more - Melody Beattie
Healing inner child - Robert Burney
So do I need to give up me to be loved by God - Margaret Paul
Healing the aloneness - Margaret Paul

Inner messages
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• Hanumanji in my heart <3 He comes within dancing, bowing in full devotion to Amma Bhagavan.
• There is no experiencer, only experiencing - Bhagavan's message whispering in heart for a long time. Interestingly Ushaji sent same message on the eve of Bhagavans darshan. Gratitude Bhagavan!! :)
• Enjoyed a very pleasant stay at Sreekanthji's house helping him out with varadeeksha mala work and form filling.
• Be as Hanuman and feel his presence, do not think his thoughts :D - Message
• The best friend one can have anytime is one's very own self :D - Message after Wise Prabu asked how our lives will be surrounded after middle age(>50)
• When you receive energies from sakthi sthal, just enjoy it. A lot of deeksha is necessary to rewire the brain and effect neurobiological change! Do not resist or deny it... the personal connection with Divine grows independent of it. It's a gift that is given from Paramatma. It is not by might or effort, but by the spirit says the LORD. When the energies touch the heart. just BE and ENJOY. Gratitude if possible :) It's an addon. 

Twameva song

My thoughts : :)
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An open and loving heart exponentially increases our capacity to feel the connection with ALL THAT IS. Aum Namashivay.

An intense emotional connection with all that is.. The primary form that spiritual energy or presence makes it manifest nature felt is : through our emotions. :D

Releasing emotions - Fundamental childhood experiences and decisions

This phase of life is all about journaling my deep experiences with Amma Bhagavan's teachings. I just came back after my Navaratri Homa from Satya Loka. A place filled with Amma Bhagavans consciousness. I vividly recall three divine experiences/processes :

1. During Pradeep Dasaji's meeting at tent, Bhagavan talked about brain change that is necessary to be with WHAT IS inside. He clearly communicated that it is not possible to stay with what IS until one's brain is rewired with Deekshas. Immediately as we sat in Savasana I felt a descent of energy from the crown of the head and felt Bhagavan touching my head with his hand from his Golden Chair. It gave a nice brain massage(middle of brain) and descended downwards into heart.

For last one whole day , (sat) , I felt indifferent and closed to outside world with a lot of mental chatter and inner dialogues. This felt like a great relief when the energies moved in through the whole body and filled with a divine ecstasy. I felt blissful afterwards the whole way home with Sekarji, Sreekanthji and Anideep ji. The external climate also felt very warm and good.

Aum Namashivay.
Gratitude Bhagavan.

More to continue in this blog.

Spiritual activation - May 11 2014 - Appa - Divine Mother initation - Jeeva Samadhi

On May 11,2014.. I see my awareness in a scene of Jeeva Samadhi. It looks like
a yogi who has just passed to the after-life into Spirit.

I see my father and mother... At that moment.. I notice a woman with a kumkum coming out or manifesting
She looks very much like Ananda Mayi Maa in her early thirties. She lovingly moves towards my father while
I eagerly await her to come near me. My father with folded hands receives a lot of energy into his Being.

Unable to stand by the intensity of energy.. He falls back on the floor. Then I see the divine lady
running her hands over my Father's chakras and releasing/re-directing energies. My father's body jerks and shakes
by the sheer intensity of her movement. She lies near my Father's head and twists it making a pathway for the
energies to dance through his Being.

I sense my mother's presence and Sudarshanji's presence as well.

Background : I felt a deep pressure inside my centre of head.. with a morbid depressive state last two days. Unable
to do anything on my own.. I invited Mother's and Master's energy to help me out.

I also prayed for healing with the relationsip with my parents(specifically father) few days back.
Now all this seems like a response from divine mother.

What is the significance of this dream?
Who was that person who came in response to my prayers?
Why Jeeva Samadhi location?

Grounding and Rose way meditation

Danna Williams ,  Joe Kasperski
Grounding and Rose way meditation

Masters of light and wisdom, Love and Limitless Light
Whose very presence fills the Whole Earth with the Brilliance of Sun
And the coolness of Million Moons

Descend upon my Being to educate on the laws of Connecting with Higher Dimensions
To seek and receive direct spiritual guidance from Spiritual Guides, Master Healers and my Higher Self in a very practical way in my life.

I thank you with bowed heads for all the help that I have received from your assistance in my life.

Namashivay.

Amma Bhagawan -- The Phenomenon of Divine descent

Divine Grace manifests through Amma Bhagawan
Feeling of Oneness awakens through Awakened and Highly Enlightened Oneness Beings
This Earth will be flooded with energies of unconditional Love and Causeless Joy everywhere
Namashivay to all the stillness and movements of deep silence Within!!

Namaste and deep Pronams to Amma Bhagawan