Balakumaran rekindles yogic fire

After a long time, I do a bit of Nadi Shodhana to clear my psychic pathways. It feels like heaven.. My upper heard and chest region feels relaxed and saturated with a mild/subtle glow of bliss. Feels good inside :)

Otherwise, my system is more or less depressed about my life not blossoming with its infinite potential. I feel stuck and not even any intention to record this in journal or vent out.

I find solace in the writings of Ed Muzika. There's thing longing to put my attention to Being to the exclusion of everything else. External activities to earn money or improve professionally does not seem to excite me much. That's a real cause of concern.

I am staying at Tuty home now and I feel tremendous love/blessing energies towards my father/mother. I feel indebted and bound in gratitude for the wonderful service they offer me. They still treat me like a child and do everything to make me feel comfortable/happy. Namashivya for that.

Prayer to Lord Shiva and Bhagavan

If you have to ask, its not a gift


Father and Divine Mother Bhagavan
Aum Namashivaya
Help me to reconnect with my inner soul
To understand the dreams and aspirations
To build them in this world...

Lead me Kindly Light
In the infinite ocean of my lives
Teach me the ways of Dharma
To attract thine grace into my life

To stick to the ways of the Old
To know my real Self
To drink from the pool of bliss
To love freely
To enjoy Life
To toast and celebrate my Joy
Of finding ME within YOU

Teach me my legacy
The Ways enjoyed by the kings and magicians of the Yore
Of beauty in hidden depths aroused by the mystical Yogis
To strive, toil , live truly and deeply
Each and every moment that comes my Way

Aum Namashivay...

Father.. I want you to tutor me in the healing arts
In the arts of connecting with you more deeply
In the arts of astral travelling
In the art of divination
In the art of healing broken souls
In the art of mediating deeply in continuous samadhi

Help me to build a legacy of name and fame
That even follows through eternity beyond my grave

Only thing I know of in this lifetime
As my mind moves and wanders
in the green pastural lands of Middle Earth
And all the ranches in the world
May I find peace within to realise the joy without
Help me Father to be my brother's aid
To be my sisters guardian
To be my father/mother's beacon of pride

Aum Namashivay.
Gratitude Sudarshanji and Divine Mother of Sakthi sthal..